Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in notatallsane's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
8:51 pm	Stuff is ok for now, but its been a hell of a while since it has been. Spring break went by way to fast, (Lisa, we didnt get to have our sleep over! :( I'm so bummed! My mom let my sister have friends over instead, I'm sorry babes. I love you!) I got to do quite a bit and atleast saw aaron some. I ended up quitting butcher which was one of the hardest things ive ever had to do. I know it was the right choise, but I still wonder if deep down it was my fault and I gave up, if there wasn't something more I could've done. It was the first big thing I ever quit and I felt like a total failure because of it. Maybe I am. I can;t wait until its summer. I need to tan, my skin is groosly pale. Current Mood: relaxed (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
4:58 pm	Artist: Billy Talent Album: Billy Talent Title: Nothing To Lose Need more friends with wings All the angels I know Put concrete in my veins I’d always walk home alone So I became lifeless Just like my telephone There’s nothing to lose When no one knows your name There’s nothing to gain But the days don’t seem to change Never played truth or dare I’d have to check my mirror To see if I’m still here My parents had no clue That I ate all my lunches Alone in the bathroom There’s nothing to lose When no one knows your name There’s nothing to gain But the days don’t seem to change There’s nothing to lose My notebook will explain There’s nothing to gain And I can’t fight the pain Teach us that it’s just a phase When I grow up my children Will probably do the same Kids just love to tease I know it put me under ground At seventeen There’s nothing to lose When no one knows your name There’s nothing to gain But the days don’t seem to change There’s nothing to lose My notebook will explain There’s nothing to gain And I can’t fight the pain There’s nothing to lose When no one knows your name There’s nothing to gain But the days don’t seem to change There’s nothing to lose When no one knows your name There’s nothing to gain And I just died today Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
4:55 pm	Artist: Billy Talent Album: Billy Talent Title: River Below Rejected since day 1 My name is, Bastard Son I've been down so many times I've lost count Blue collar working man Defaceless masterplan But go work with a mental side on I'm sick and I'm twisted I'm broken you can't fix it Don't make me, cause I'll do it Red button and we'll all go Into the river below I'm running from the inferno They'll think I'm insane But you'll all know my name Into the river below I'm running from the inferno I'll take all the blame The frontpage and the fame Contraption Made of bones Nuts and bolts Creates them New monster Brought your family tree down Tick tocking Times up now Split second Though it fell Lonley hearts Never had nobody I'm sick and I'm twisted I'm broken you can't fix it Don't make me cause I'll do it Red button and we'll all go Into the river below I'm runnig from the inferno They'll think I'm insane But you'll all know my name Into the river below I'm running from the inferno I'll take all the blame The frontpage and the fame I'll take all the blame The frontpage and the fame Into the river below (Comment on this)
4:50 pm	I can't decide whether its better to just let everything go or dwell on it. Either way I give up..... Current Mood: working (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 27th, 2004
8:50 pm	....Yeah I'm really fucking pissed Current Mood: angry (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
7:24 pm	its snowing but that doesnt seem as great as it usually would nobody has to bother reading this shizzle cause its just me getting my emo out, nothing exciting so feel free to skip over. I appoligize for all bitchy and emoness as of late, lack of sleep, crazy family, what can I say...? well the last two weeks can really suck my cock. I don't think a single I've tried to do has gone right with the exception of actually passing a math quiz with an A. Thats right speko with an A in math. But Arahn's grandpa died, and on top of him kinda of being sad he wasn't around. In the past three days, he's done more than I have in the last two weeks. It pisses me off so much that there's always so much goin on that I'm not part because my parents want me home or I have to clean or they're just to tired and therefore I can't have a life. I have to sit at home wishing I was somewhere else knowing that my friends are out somewhere enjoying themselves spending more time with my boyfriend then I do and eachother for that matter. I've come to the conclusion that no matter what I do it'll never be good enough. I was really hoping to make all county for swim this and didn't, didn't sould like it came that close either. But atleast anna and jackie made it so good jod guys. Patience and I are getting closer again I think and I think thats a good thing, I love you Lisa! Natalie and I on ther other hand hardly talk anymore and I miss it, sometimes I get the feeling shes mad at me and I have idea at all why, but I hope she knows I love her. Hey Jen its a break, you need to come see us soon!Talk to you all soon.... Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Friday, November 12th, 2004
4:30 pm	Well swim season's finally over and I made it through without going insane, so that's a definate plus. Got my report cad from butcher yesterday, a much less fortunate occurance as I only managed a C, C-, and D. I think the scariest part is that greg and patience broke up last night. I thought they were going to end up married someday, and maybe things will work out and they will, but right now it doesn't look like it. It was wierd to see them ignore eachother, for patience to just walk past greg, to see patience cry, and greg didnt even look that as sad after seven funerals as he did today. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
7:00 pm	well I finally made it around to getting online! The gang was over yesterday and it was nice just to hang around and relax. Floyd brought Chelsea by and I'm glad, it wasn't the same without him and he seems really happy now. Though apparently he's being looked for as I write...Floyd, M.I.A.! Twister was divine, though we could frame greg and recchia if we wanted to now. Lisa you're awesome I love you so much, thanks for listening to me complain you're my babe! I like the new classes at butcher except I wish I had lisa and I miss sam, eric, v, and zach, its quite and much less entertaining without you guys! I dunno if I'll make it through the quarter on my own, but hey, I got patience and al so woohoo! Jen, I miss you, you need to come out here soon and hang with us! I love you! The Pre-ACT was cake and the mew part was sweet, I knew what it was. I was like "Yeah who's the one who knows whats going on know?" Current Mood: calm (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 12th, 2004
7:59 pm	majorly seriously pissed off So Im sick and pmsing but Im still effin pissed off. I can ignore not being somewhere I'd rather be for a while but it catches up to me esecially when I get a good taste off what its like. I could be sitting in aarons arms , talking to lisa and being happy but instead here I sit bored and pissed as hell. This weekend I was barely home and I absolutely loved it and I go from that to do nothing but being stuck here. And I have to admit the whole good part was being with aaron constantly and lisa and jen and natalie and patience and arahn and arahn...lol. Homecoming was fun and arahn looked incredible. More later have to jet, strike 2 of the gay ass parents! Current Mood: gloomy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 5th, 2004
9:40 pm	Trust me, shes better off not being me ell its been a hell of a week. On Monday school started which is awesome casue I get to see all my homies every single effin day! Yea! Me and Natalie went to the orientation at butcher and I can’t wait to meet some new people. It was exciting but I was crushed that Mr. Copeland retired. He’s effin awesome! After practice everyone came and hung out at my house. It was great to just chill. I love you all! Tuesday was uneventful. Wednesday I started Butcher and realized how stupid I am in comparision to all these briallant kids that are in class with me. I love it there though. We had our first swim meet and I was freaking out because I wasn’t swimming the 500 and instead I was in the fly. After my second event the 200 which I thought I dragged in but instead swam my best times and made counties, everything was ok. 2:23 baby! Then I took 5 seconds off my fly and qualified with a 1:16. It surprised the hell out of me, lemme tell ya. AND ANNAS GOIN TO COUNTIES WITH ME! Jackie 2, but I told anna she had to and she did! Woot! Thursday was a half day for LS but I still had butcher swim went alright we had few break downs but we’ll work through it. Patience and Lani I love you guys and if you need me I’m here for you. Then everyone came to my house again and it was a blast. Natalie me and you forever, I luuuuv u! Lisa your effin awesome homie! I absolutely love you to death! And aaron I wish you coulda stayed here with me I love you sooooo much and it was great to just be with you for a while. Friday was fine, boring til gregs though. Saturday was even better with mark and greg out in the lake and NESSI!!!!! Good job catching that sea gull greg, I was proud. The spiders at gregs are effin scary though. They fed a bunch to the frogs which are now my heroes. Go frogs go! And aaron bought me a glass rose form the renissaince festival and its wonderful, it made me so happy. Today was good to some point. My dad had me drive around for four hours so I had time to log and we got breakfast and drove through fog. It was fun but it made mom awful mad and the rents are at it again. Me lisa floyd and arahn hang out and went drivng around. Floyd showed us a bunch of places and we bugged recchia, but then I came home to my mom saying she wished she was me and wanted to gag. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
1:06 pm	Ok to begin with sry nothign bolded on the last last update, ill go back and list the ones that shouldve benn beolded. Ill update later Current Mood: crazy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
10:16 pm	INSTRUCTIONS: 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold the things that are true about you. 3. Whatever you don’t bold is false. 01. I miss somebody right now. 02. I don’t watch much TV these days 03. I love olives 04. I love sleeping 05. I own lots of books 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses 07. I love to play video games 08. I’ve tried marijuana 09. I’ve watched porn movies 10. I have been in a threesome 11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship 12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy 13. I have acne free skin 14. I like and respect Al Sharpton 15. I curse frequently 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year 17. I have a hobby 18. I’ve been told I: have an applebottom 19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 20. I’m really, really smart 21. I’ve never broken someone’s bones 22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal 23. I hate the rain 24. I’m paranoid at times 25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free 26. I need money right now! 27. I love Sushi 28. I talk really, really fast 29. I have fresh breath in the morning 30. I have semi-long hair 31. I have lost money in Las Vegas 32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister 33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. 34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis 35. I have a twin 36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past 37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D. 38. I like the way that I look sometimes 39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months 40. I know how to cornrow 41. I am usually pessimistic 42. I have a lot of mood swings 43. I think prostitution should be legalized 44. I think Britney Spears is hot haha 45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past 46. I have a hidden talent 47. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have 48. I think that I’m popular 49. I am currently single 50. I have kissed someone of the same sex 51. I enjoy talking on the phone 52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants 53. I love to shop 54. I would rather shop than eat 55. I would classify myself as ghetto 56. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders 57. I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal 58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them. 59. I’m a pretty good dancer 60. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington 61. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother 62. I have a cell phone 63. I believe in God 64. I watch MTV on a daily basis 65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months 66. I love drama 67. I have never been in a real relationship before 68. I’ve rejected someone before 69. I currently have a crush on someone 70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life 71. I want to have children in the future 72. I have changed a diaper before 73. I’ve called the cops on a friend before 74. I bite my nails 75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club 76. I’m not allergic to anything 77. I have a lot to learn 78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger 79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie 80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes 81. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message 82. I have at least 5 away messages saved 83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before 84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past 85. I own the "South Park" movie 86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal 87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum 88. I enjoy some country music 89. I would die for my best friend. 90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. 91. I watch soap operas whenever I can 92. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist 93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career 94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all 95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story" 96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy 97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it 98. I have dated a close friend’s ex 99. I have cut my self before 100. I am happy at this moment (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:50 pm	Artist: Ashlee Simpson Album: Autobiography Title: Love Me For Me It's been three days You come around here like you know me You're stuck in my place Next thing you know, you'll be using my toothpaste Step up, sit down Get ready, let me tell you who's the boss now Stay here, get out Everytime i turn around you're in my face Don't care where you think you've been, and how you're getting over If you think you've got me found Just wait it gets much golder Here I am, As perfect as i'm ever gonna be You'll see Love me for me Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave You'll see Love me for me Shut up, come back Know i didn't really mean to say that I'm mixed up, so what Yea you want me so you're messed up too I love you, I hate you If you only knew what i've been through My head is spinnin' But my heart is in the right place Sometimes it has to have it's self a little earthquake Here I am, As perfect as i'm ever gonna be You'll see Love me for me Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave You'll see Love me for me I've been waiting all my life To finally find you Just so i can push you away And when youre crawlin on broken glass to get to me That's when i'll let you stay Oh, here I am As perfect as i'm ever gonna be You'll see Love me for me Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave You'll see Love me for me Whoa, here I am As perfect as i'm ever gonna be You'll see Love me for me Stick around, I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave You'll see Love me for me Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
3:19 pm	"I want you to want to know me I want you to call my name Wish that you would know There's more than meets the eye There's more to find I want you to start asking questions I want you to understand There's so many people around And once again I'm getting lonely." Current Mood: aggravated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
7:51 am	I managed to get a mere 20 minutes of sleep and thats what I'll be living on through two swim practices and a full day. I waited on-line until like 3 hoping aaron was going to sign but then I gave up, more later. Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:08 am	Omg! Im sitting here talking to Joe Petro and he needs someone to talk to but I can't call and he's flipping out, I feel really bad. he's going all crazy but I can't call him. My rents would flip and I mean I'll call him tomorrow but, man I feel shitty not calling him. Current Mood: guilty (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:59 am	Hey all I finally got a Live Journal, no idea how its different than blurty though so mt basic plan is to write in one and copy and paste into the other. Both usernames are the same but hopefully having a livejournal more people will read this stuff. I guess I should sleep but hey, I'll be swimming in two or three hours. Current Mood: indifferent (Comment on this)